beauty queens

Today I heard Nafisa Joseph killed herself and I am quite shocked. It also set me thinking: most of my friends have been beautiful women and most of their lives have been jam packed with tragedy. It just seemed as if the world expected too much of them and they were unable to deliver. Also, every single thing they did was cross examined minutely by those around. Which made them even more uncomfortable and so naturally more vulnerable. Quite a few of them have remained single, they just can't find the right one and even when they do, they are used as trophies to be shown off in the relationship. Is the old adage "beauty is a curse" too brutally honest? I can't say. All I know is that one old friend of mine who used to share my place at one time must be really shaken, since she lost her crown to Nafisa many years ago at the Miss India contest. Who would have thought that things would have turned out this way? All the little girls who wear flowers in their hair and say: I want to be Miss India when I grow up, will now subtly be told that they shouldn't say such bad things ever again! Life is indeed stranger than fiction.

when people are obtuse

Someone told me that today's 20 somethings are all full of shit, pardon the expression? From what I have observed the breed can either be exceptionally worthy or full of themselves.  The latter is fast becoming an epidemic... the symptoms are cocking a snook at authority, baring midriff under the assumption that its worth baring and taking sexy to as far as it will go!
I am currently studying a particular breed of this species that is suffering from a bout of 'i'm too sexy for this world'. It is hilarious to say the least. Who said sexy is all about T&A? The most sensuous thing I know of is saying the right thing at the right time. It's much like comedy where timing is everything!!

no friends

I realised today that there are people in this world who actually have no friends. They have no one to talk to, to bitch with or to try out new things with.

singletons

I look at people around me and it brings back memories of when I was not in a relationship. For the longest time I was convinced that love would always elude me till one day it hit me right in the face, packaged in unfamilar paper.  I didn't like it at first, fought it for as long as I could and then finally just let it swallow me. Now when I see people in that  familair single limbo as I refer to it, I die to tell them, to just forget that they are looking for love. The moment you do that it comes seeking you out.

From what I remember some of my most painful memories have been connected to wrong choices.  But to make the right choice, you have to learn what the wrong one looks like.

rude inc

Does one necessarily have to be rude to people who are rude to you? I for one am extremely uncomfortable about saying things that will hurt since my sarcasm is usually unforgivable!! And I know for a fact that the other person will be humilated. So I choose the safer way out and keep quiet!! Are there more like me around? I would really like to now...

back to making a living

After lazing about for the longest time read two years I am back to the grind read work. And I don't know what has hit me.  I find no time to read/update my blog/chat on msgr or just stare into space, which is what I do best.
Do I miss all of it? I can't say.  Coz actually I love working provided the atmosphere is conducive and the boss is not over 40 and an unmarried female with mood swings.
The latter scares me to death!! You can never tell when the tide will turn against you! I like working with men- they are upfront, accessible and not paranoid about losing grip over control.

ideas n all

Oscar Wilde was right when he said "Be careful what you wish for, you might actually get it". I have wished for many things as part of growing up and haven't got any of it.  But in retrospect I am so glad I didn't..they were awful wishes.

first impressions

i am now convinced that first impressions are worst impressions. All the people I know or want to know today, are the ones who I hated on sight. It was only later that I slowly changed my mind after I got to know them better.
I too am quite unbearable on sight. I come across as the "who does she think she is? type". Eventually all those who know me say that it is farthest from the truth. So much for creating the "right impression" huh?

time and tide waits for no man

Someone kept me waiting today for 25 mins and I was really ticked off. Not because I was kept waiting but because I personally think that people who don't respect time are self-obsessed. They are unable to look up from themselves and see others. which is why keeping someone waiting, whether on the personal or professional front, becomes a daily chore for them. They say that time and tide waits for no man but I think that if you respect time, at some point when you really need it, it will stop for you!